I have been gone for a couple weeks now and i’m sure my readers are wondering where did I go but I’m back! I just needed some time to collect my thoughts and also to organize my life. Lack of organization made it really hard for me to write and also to plan out some of my next moves. So anyway.. I figured that there would be something eventually that would make me want to break my silence and it happened the day I read about Lauryn Hill’s failure to pay her taxes.
Basically Lauryn Hill is being charged with three counts of misdemeanor failure to file her taxes from the year 2005 to 2007. Unfortunately hearing about a celebrity not paying taxes isn’t uncommon but it was her response that intrigued me. As we know Lauryn Hill does not do much public speaking or performing but she did take the time to respond to this situation on her tumblr account. Surprisingly, or maybe not so surprisingly, I understood her response and felt like it related to some of current thoughts i’ve been having during my short hiatus.
Lauryn Hill explained that after the success of “The Miseducation of Lauryn Hill”, she felt that there was pressure put on her to be something that she wasnt. She also felt that in order to continue with the success she had, she would have to conform to society and succumb to a materialistic world.
“For the past several years, I have remained what others would consider underground. I did this in order to build a community of people, like-minded in their desire for freedom and the right to pursue their goals and lives without being manipulated and controlled by a media protected military industrial complex with a completely different agenda.”
She also stated that before she felt the need to go underground, she did pay her taxes and when she didn’t pay them it was “in order to guarantee the safety and well-being of myself and my family.” Now I do understand why some people may see this as an extreme way of thinking but I understand her. Lots of people have spread rumors or said negative things about Lauryn Hill’s mental status but I feel like she is completely sane. In no way do I think it was okay to not pay her taxes but I do understand her reasoning and i’ll explain why.
I am a very free spirited person and lately i’ve been struggling with the idea of freedom and the way our society is set up. Lauryn Hill’s response embodied the thoughts I have been struggling with. In her life she felt that her artistic abilities had been turned into a negative thing where people used her for material things and greed. Lately i’ve been feeling that most people only worry about money, no longer do people care about the next person. I commend her for pulling away from society to bring her family into a higher consciousness that doesn’t place money and material over love and peace.
Most people may think that Lauryn Hil could of kept her career going and just continued to fight for her individuality because with her talent we all know that she could have taken over the world. Sometimes the urge for freedom and peace in your heart surpasses the feeling of “taking over the world” and that urge is what led Lauryn Hill to go underground. I have many, many days where I just want to drop everything and run away but not because i’m running from anything but because i’m running to a different type of society that existed before money took over the world.
I also have moments when I question freedom. I mean clearly I know we are no longer being held captive and in chains, but are we really free? I feel like freedom is sometimes based on your income, people that make more money have more choices. People that make less money, like myself, can only do what they can afford to do which isn’t much. I’d love to travel the world and help anyone I can through volunteer work but my first thoughts are always how will I take care of myself if I have no income? It’s like a relentless circle that never stops and makes me feel stuck. It makes me feel like my freedom is limited by the rules and ways of society. I mean even in the aspect of education, we have to take out loans that put us in severe debt with the hope of getting a good paying job in a economy that no longer can guarantee us a job at all.
Dont get me wrong, i’m not saying my life is anywhere near horrible because I am blessed to have all that I have. I’m just saying we should all open our minds to opinions from others like Lauryn Hill. Be a little less judgemental and more open to ideas that may not be exactly like ours. Maybe even define freedom for ourselves and remove our connection from material things.
Just giving you a little something to think about…